There is a website that has list that people just make up. If you know me and I assume you do because I, wait why do I act like I have readers, the few people I knew were reading this one said they lost the website, the others are like I haven't checked it in awhile. I know I was busy and stopped writing but I like the outlet. I am working on the website really just writing things in a notebook and trying to get it where I want to be but I take a long time to get things where I want them and generally they pass me by so I have to learn to give a little I think . Anyway to me I guess, since I do entertain myself often, since I always laugh at my jokes, and since I don't get sick of hearing myself like most others do, I will continue. You know though I was thinking, the only people I am close to are the few who basically have to be because they are family. Everyone else I have either alienated or I want to be closer and they want nothing to do with me. Well I am never going to beg someone to talk to me, that is up to them, if I am that bad it's probably best we don't speak because well why would you want to. Your probably better off being entertained by whatever other people you already have in your life. I am sure they are fine. It's on me to just get over wanting to talk to those people. There are a few. Once I really settle into my house I will be such a loner, hopefully an incredible loner in my own head. There are things I want to do and just can't seem to focus. I get so easily distracted but when I have free time I really need to settle down and do it. I am lost right now, but anxious for something you know. People say it is sad how I live, and there are moments I agree with them, shutting myself off and not really knowing a connection with people, not at all, not knowing how to relate to people and understand them, but it is only sad when I try and fail so bad that they have to let me go and they just fade away and I just sit there in awe. But it's the price I have to pay for holding our for only people who inspire me. People I can't get enough of. So yes there are going to be plenty of sad moments for me, but in the end I think greatness is what I continue to hold out for. If only others were so willing to hold out for the same. I just look at you all and say- I am glad I don't have that- but if that is what you want then that is good for you. If only that makes you happy then you are lucky. It's like when you see a kid being entertained with just a block and they will go at it for 20 mins. Were like wtf? How can that still be fun for them. That is how most people are. You are with the block, and I am saying, how can that still be what you want? I only wish I was so simple. I'll wait and watch you all. Because your relationships keep me holding out for better. Thanks for that I guess. Thanks for being so plain and uninspiring that you actually do inspire me for much much better, keeping me thinking my relationships in all aspects of my life, family and love better be way way better then that.
Man I will go on a rant sometimes wtf? Anyway I was talking about lists which you all know I love. Anyway in another post yesterday maybe, I was talking about what girls look for in a guy. The site has girls just listing things they want so I will write some of them down. Ones I find interesting, even though most of them I am not. Here is one girls full list:
1. Kindness
2. Honesty
3. Respect
4. Humor
5. Intelligence
6. Imaginative
7. Affectionate
8. Adaptable
9. Ambitious
10. Non-Judgemental
11. Faithful
12. Tolerant
13. Trusting
14. Empathetic
15. Sincerity
16. Unique
17. Positive
18. Curious
19. Creative
20. Generous
21. Happy
22. Gentle
23. Patient
24. Considerate
25. Uninhibited
26. Helpful
27. Lighthearted
28. Talented
29. Spontaneous
30. Sexy
31. Clever
32. Observant
33. Resourceful
34. Adventurous
35. Enthusiastic
36. Dedicated
37. Persistent
38. Diplomatic
39. Inquisitive
40. Devoted to Family and Friends
41. Sober
42. Person with continuing spiritual growth
43. A man of God- she says here this is the most important quality in her list.
That is a really impressive list. Haha you all should go down the list and see what your guy has. I know for sure I have them all. Haha no I think I am missing a few or need to work on some. Maybe I will never date until I get this list down. I can say that because I don't ever date so if someone asks I can be like no I am working on this list. That way no girl will be able to resist. Also I will be 75 at the time but who cares right I will be sexy to the 70 year olds. I didn't want to say sexy but she had it on her list so I felt I needed to.
Here is another girls list not the full list, just things that stick out to me.
1. Is a Godly Man
2. Makes Me Laugh
3. I wake up just to spend the day with him!
12. accepts me with or without makeup
13. allows me to have plenty of freedom
14. is not jealous
15. is trusting
16. doesn’t have to drink to party
17. paves the way, rather than following others
22.loves my family
23. loves his family
24. wants a family
33. forms opinions and discusses them
43. can carry on a conversation
44. knows how to shut up and listen
45. is open-minded
46. is spirited
47. is compassionate
48. loves acting goofy
52. is there for me when I most need him
53. has goals, and achieves them
54. supports my goals
55. is my best friend
69. understands my past
70. understands my need for independence
71. i want him to try to spoil me (though Ill refuse 2 let him!)
72. can keep up with my shopping abilities
73. likes to travel
89. loves me for me, and nothing more
90. isn’t lazy
91. can cook
92. knows how to do laundry
93. knows how to iron
94. is independent of his parents
95. handles conflicts with maturity
96. treats his mom right
98. has a magnetic personality that makes me LOVE him
That is a pretty good list. Man just when I thought I was close because I was clever and had a good sense of humor. I am way off. Back to the drawing board. WTF I just used that saying last night. Now I am not even clever. How am I getting worse on the what do girls want lists. Also why did they not have- "can pick out sweet furniture better then I can" on the list? Maybe because that sounds gay. Man! The one thing I am good at, maybe I will check that off as talent. Hot girls be warned now, I will be checking off this master list I will make and once I get 75% I will send it checked off in the mail with a yes or no on in and you can send it back to me letting me know how I am doing, if you think I am date able now. I got to get on it now. Lets start at the top kindness-
"My you look pretty today, let me get the door for you my dear" (Tip of the hat)
Kindness- check
onto number 2
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Runaway
Yeah I always find something wrong
I'm so gifted at finding what I don't like the most
So I think it's time for us to have a toast
Let's have a toast to the Douchebags
Baby I got a plan
Run away fast as you can!
I'm so gifted at finding what I don't like the most
So I think it's time for us to have a toast
Let's have a toast to the Douchebags
Baby I got a plan
Run away fast as you can!
Thick girl
I wonder- if I tell a thick girl, "I don't know if I could handle you but I would like to try" do you think they would take that as a compliment? I mean I am saying I would like to try so obviously I think they are hot, or at least close to hot I guess, but I get it that they don't want to hear that they are thick and if they could be handled. Jeez ladies I call it like I see it. I saw a thing online for what girls look for most in guys. What I love to read glamour- purely for the topics to bring up on my blogs not for enjoyment. Honesty was really high so why don't they respect it when I tell them they are thick. Haha I would never say that now- I would have years ago but I have learned my lesson- I just think it. Wierd that humor is really always high on girls list. Am I missing something. Maybe I don't have the humor girls like. They should specify which type of humor they want- I have been working this hard to perfect the list of what girls want and now I find out they want a goofy sense of humor that they understand. Not something that takes them a few reads or a minute to let it sink in. Back to the drawing board right? The joke drawing board- zing- did you ladies just love that joke I said- I hope not because I can't bring myself to say many more corny jokes. But I do love a girl who will tell a corny joke here and there, as long as she knows it's corny and not actually creative. Almost as if she is saying it with a wink. Mostly because there is nothing better then a lady who winks. Where are you my love? Oh right I missed out on you when I called you thick- my deepest apologies. You didn't seem to appreciate my wink like I did yours. Now were both missing out my love.
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Throw-in Challange
As you can see this is my mock up for the throw-in challenge. I know you are like oh my gosh Chris why are you not doing this for a living. I still have the squiggly lines for the spell check and for some reason the blue underline under best. Apparently I wanted that to stick out. This is just in the works right now the challenge is but I don't have much time before it gets cold and there is no way I can win if it gets cold out. She was great at the throw-in, she actually inspired me to practice. I would tell my dad to secretly film her throwing it in that way I could go home and break down what she was doing. What I could learn from her. Well I think I finally got it. It's all in the legs. Me and my design team have been putting in countless hours on this flyer/challenge so it will be really embarrassing if I show up and she doesn't but I will take it as a victory that she was scared to lose the throw-in crown. Me vs Lorie Coker what a battle. I am having a throw-in trophy made as well. I forgot to put on the flyer that there may be hot dogs served and live music, there won't be but I may put it just to draw in a crowd. I will probably be wearing my old jersey and hopefully she will be wearing hers. I was number 16 wtf was her number. I guess I have to go watch the film, I was so busy yelling shark em and breaking down her throw-ins that I forgot to see what number she was. I hope you guys can make the contest. It will last all of five minutes with introductions and stuff. Trust me it will be awkward just as I like it. Wish me luck. Good luck to Lorie as well.
Monday, September 27, 2010
INTJ
I love to hear and read about personality types, not just mine but everyones. I normally don't connect well with people, which should be obvious to most since well I have really no connections other then family and a few other people and even those I have are almost non-exsistent, but anyway I still love to read about their personalities and what makes them click. And then I am like oh no wonder your a loser, no wonder we don't connect because I am sweet and you are a numbnut. And then I am like take a look at what this numbnuts did- actually I don't say that the cop from something about mary does but it was a sweet line in the movie so I felt I needed to drop that in.
Hopefully you all find your type and then we can discuss it, I am a really good listener actually as long as you are talking about something interesting, if not I will fake yawn and act like I am tired. Once months ago I listened for like four hours, the girl was just talking I never said anything just listened. Well I may have said a few things but she was interesting enough. No fake yawning. It wasn't that bad- actually to be honest it was good, normally I would say oh I am going under a bridge I am breaking up but not then, I never faked a breaking up scratchy noise and then hang up. I am sure it wasnt me that was the interesting one and could not get enough of my own answers. But normally I don't talk on the phone though so, I used like 20 mins on my phone last month so that should tell you something. I do text more but other then months ago when I was like on a texting frenzy with someone I don't do alot anymore. Maybe I am like a teenage girl at heart who really loves the phone, I am just too embarrased to admit it. Hmmmm?
What was my point right? I have no idea, but I think it was personality traits. Yes it was and how freaking sweet mine is compared to everyone else.
http://www.personalitypage.com/html/home.shtml
That is the personality page I am pulling this stuff from
So I am an INTJ which is
Introvert-I
Intuitive-N
Thinking-T
Judging- J
This one is called the scientist.
I will give you the highlights because I know you don't give an F about my type you just want yours but because it is my blog and you guys should care because my type is the sweetest you could learn maybe how to be more like me.
INTJs live in the world of ideas and strategic planning. They value intelligence, knowledge, and competence, and typically have high standards in these regards, which they continuously strive to fulfill. To a somewhat lesser extent, they have similar expectations of others.
It is not easy for the INTJ to express their internal images, insights, and abstractions. The internal form of the INTJ's thoughts and concepts is highly individualized, and is not readily translatable into a form that others will understand. However, the INTJ is driven to translate their ideas into a plan or system that is usually readily explainable, rather than to do a direct translation of their thoughts. They usually don't see the value of a direct transaction, and will also have difficulty expressing their ideas, which are non-linear. However, their extreme respect of knowledge and intelligence will motivate them to explain themselves to another person who they feel is deserving of the effort.
INTJs spend a lot of time inside their own minds, and may have little interest in the other people's thoughts or feelings. Unless their Feeling side is developed, they may have problems giving other people the level of intimacy that is needed. Unless their Sensing side is developed, they may have a tendency to ignore details which are necessary for implementing their ideas.
They are quick to express judgments. Often they have very evolved intuitions, and are convinced that they are right about things. Unless they complement their intuitive understanding with a well-developed ability to express their insights, they may find themselves frequently misunderstood. In these cases, INTJs tend to blame misunderstandings on the limitations of the other party, rather than on their own difficulty in expressing themselves. This tendency may cause the INTJ to dismiss others input too quickly, and to become generally arrogant and elitist.
INTJ Strengths
Not threatened by conflict or criticism
Usually self-confident
Take their relationships and commitments seriously
Generally extremely intelligent and capable
Able to leave a relationship which should be ended, although they may dwell on it in their minds for awhile afterwards
Interested in "optimizing" their relationships
Good listeners
INTJ Weakness
Not naturally in tune with others feelings; may be insensitive at times
May tend to respond to conflict with logic and reason, rather than the desired emotional support
Not naturally good at expressing feelings and affections
Tendency to believe that they're always right
Tendency to be unwilling or unable to accept blame
Their constant quest to improve everything may be taxing on relationships
Tend to hold back part of themselves
INTJs are highly intense, intelligent people who bring a lot of depth and insight into most major areas of their life.Personal relationships, particularly romantic ones, can be the INTJ's Achilles heel. While they are capable of caring deeply for others (usually a select few), and are willing to spend a great deal of time and effort on a relationship, the knowledge and self-confidence that make them so successful in other areas can suddenly abandon or mislead them in interpersonal situations.
This happens in part because many INTJs do not readily grasp the social rituals; for instance, they tend to have little patience and less understanding of such things as small talk and flirtation (which most types consider half the fun of a relationship). To complicate matters, INTJs are usually extremely private people, and can often be naturally impassive as well, which makes them easy to misread and misunderstand. Perhaps the most fundamental problem, however, is that INTJs really want people to make sense. :-) This sometimes results in a peculiar naivete', paralleling that of many Fs -- only instead of expecting inexhaustible affection and empathy from a romantic relationship, the INTJ will expect inexhaustible reasonability and directness.
So there you have it. I am sweet, I know. I think people do find me exhausting, it's like they just find me too intense, too much, I like you chris but I can't explain everything I think in my head to you, let me get my own thoughts straight, and also I don't need to hear your opinion on everything. Like it said though, I am just misunderstood, which I actually have always felt like that. I just want to know what is going on in each person's mind though and people think it is wierd and too much I guess. That is fine though because I have come to realize that sometimes I am maybe too much of a good thing haha. But really once you get passed the first stage with me and I get you, where your coming from and I can comfortably put you in the box I need you to be in, I am much better, most people just don't take the chance. Oh well.
Hopefully you all find your type and then we can discuss it, I am a really good listener actually as long as you are talking about something interesting, if not I will fake yawn and act like I am tired. Once months ago I listened for like four hours, the girl was just talking I never said anything just listened. Well I may have said a few things but she was interesting enough. No fake yawning. It wasn't that bad- actually to be honest it was good, normally I would say oh I am going under a bridge I am breaking up but not then, I never faked a breaking up scratchy noise and then hang up. I am sure it wasnt me that was the interesting one and could not get enough of my own answers. But normally I don't talk on the phone though so, I used like 20 mins on my phone last month so that should tell you something. I do text more but other then months ago when I was like on a texting frenzy with someone I don't do alot anymore. Maybe I am like a teenage girl at heart who really loves the phone, I am just too embarrased to admit it. Hmmmm?
What was my point right? I have no idea, but I think it was personality traits. Yes it was and how freaking sweet mine is compared to everyone else.
http://www.personalitypage.com/html/home.shtml
That is the personality page I am pulling this stuff from
So I am an INTJ which is
Introvert-I
Intuitive-N
Thinking-T
Judging- J
This one is called the scientist.
I will give you the highlights because I know you don't give an F about my type you just want yours but because it is my blog and you guys should care because my type is the sweetest you could learn maybe how to be more like me.
INTJs live in the world of ideas and strategic planning. They value intelligence, knowledge, and competence, and typically have high standards in these regards, which they continuously strive to fulfill. To a somewhat lesser extent, they have similar expectations of others.
It is not easy for the INTJ to express their internal images, insights, and abstractions. The internal form of the INTJ's thoughts and concepts is highly individualized, and is not readily translatable into a form that others will understand. However, the INTJ is driven to translate their ideas into a plan or system that is usually readily explainable, rather than to do a direct translation of their thoughts. They usually don't see the value of a direct transaction, and will also have difficulty expressing their ideas, which are non-linear. However, their extreme respect of knowledge and intelligence will motivate them to explain themselves to another person who they feel is deserving of the effort.
INTJs spend a lot of time inside their own minds, and may have little interest in the other people's thoughts or feelings. Unless their Feeling side is developed, they may have problems giving other people the level of intimacy that is needed. Unless their Sensing side is developed, they may have a tendency to ignore details which are necessary for implementing their ideas.
They are quick to express judgments. Often they have very evolved intuitions, and are convinced that they are right about things. Unless they complement their intuitive understanding with a well-developed ability to express their insights, they may find themselves frequently misunderstood. In these cases, INTJs tend to blame misunderstandings on the limitations of the other party, rather than on their own difficulty in expressing themselves. This tendency may cause the INTJ to dismiss others input too quickly, and to become generally arrogant and elitist.
INTJ Strengths
Not threatened by conflict or criticism
Usually self-confident
Take their relationships and commitments seriously
Generally extremely intelligent and capable
Able to leave a relationship which should be ended, although they may dwell on it in their minds for awhile afterwards
Interested in "optimizing" their relationships
Good listeners
INTJ Weakness
Not naturally in tune with others feelings; may be insensitive at times
May tend to respond to conflict with logic and reason, rather than the desired emotional support
Not naturally good at expressing feelings and affections
Tendency to believe that they're always right
Tendency to be unwilling or unable to accept blame
Their constant quest to improve everything may be taxing on relationships
Tend to hold back part of themselves
INTJs are highly intense, intelligent people who bring a lot of depth and insight into most major areas of their life.Personal relationships, particularly romantic ones, can be the INTJ's Achilles heel. While they are capable of caring deeply for others (usually a select few), and are willing to spend a great deal of time and effort on a relationship, the knowledge and self-confidence that make them so successful in other areas can suddenly abandon or mislead them in interpersonal situations.
This happens in part because many INTJs do not readily grasp the social rituals; for instance, they tend to have little patience and less understanding of such things as small talk and flirtation (which most types consider half the fun of a relationship). To complicate matters, INTJs are usually extremely private people, and can often be naturally impassive as well, which makes them easy to misread and misunderstand. Perhaps the most fundamental problem, however, is that INTJs really want people to make sense. :-) This sometimes results in a peculiar naivete', paralleling that of many Fs -- only instead of expecting inexhaustible affection and empathy from a romantic relationship, the INTJ will expect inexhaustible reasonability and directness.
So there you have it. I am sweet, I know. I think people do find me exhausting, it's like they just find me too intense, too much, I like you chris but I can't explain everything I think in my head to you, let me get my own thoughts straight, and also I don't need to hear your opinion on everything. Like it said though, I am just misunderstood, which I actually have always felt like that. I just want to know what is going on in each person's mind though and people think it is wierd and too much I guess. That is fine though because I have come to realize that sometimes I am maybe too much of a good thing haha. But really once you get passed the first stage with me and I get you, where your coming from and I can comfortably put you in the box I need you to be in, I am much better, most people just don't take the chance. Oh well.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Sneak Peek
http://theresssmoremycrazylife.blogspot.com/
This is one of the many blogs I am working on for the website. It is kinda what you would expect from me so nothing out of the ordinary. Even though compared to what others write it is out of the ordinary just not my ordinary you see.
Check it!
I only want negative responses as well, not oh yeah it was funny or something like that I don't care about that. Find something negative about it and let me know. Thanks
This is one of the many blogs I am working on for the website. It is kinda what you would expect from me so nothing out of the ordinary. Even though compared to what others write it is out of the ordinary just not my ordinary you see.
Check it!
I only want negative responses as well, not oh yeah it was funny or something like that I don't care about that. Find something negative about it and let me know. Thanks
Friday, September 17, 2010
Where I am at?
So I don't know if this will be my last post or not and I have probably already lost all my readers. Maybe all five of them but thanks for reading I guess. When I first started I was going through some things and needed to write, and then I got past that and just wanted to start writing to see if I could write something interesting. The few people who I know did read it all told me they would laugh out loud at it so that always feels good. I knew that if I would laugh out loud as I was writing then that would be good enough to post. I realized that it is hard to come up with things to write, but I also realized that when I just sit back and flow it seems to come out and I am half the time like wtf how did I get onto that. I know my sense of humor is not for everyone and I also know that it is out there but I want everyone to be able to separate my stories from myself. I figure all the people who know me know I am nothing like my character I write about but at the same time, if someone were to happen onto my blog, I hope they know it's just that. A story that is really odd and just funny and not to be anything more. I think people get that so I am fine with it. I was inspired early this year by things and needed to take a deep look at where I was in life. I just didn't like the person I was being. I was insecure, a pain, critical, controlling, very very black and white, and really only wanted what I wanted. I am still those things and I think I will always struggle with those traits but I just have to learn how to tame them and use them as good. Those are me so I don't want them to just vanish but at the same time alot of that has lead me to where I was not happy with who I was because I always thought well this is me, why should I change. Well I should change 1 because I don't like that person, and 2 because what has being you gotten you, not where you want to be. A huge ego and pride along with insecurity is what I was. A contradiction I know but that was me and still am, just now more aware. I realized that I can't control no matter how much I want to, what people are going to do with their life. Everyone sees the world differently and has to find their own path. That is what makes the world go round but it is hard to just sit back and allow it to happen around you. I know where I stand and if people don't want to talk to me for whatever reason or me in their life then that is on them and I just have to move on from it. I hope they feel they made the correct choice and I will never hold it against them because they felt it was right at that time in their life. I think when that happens we will always be disappointed but we have to realize that they think what they are doing is right for them at that moment and pray that everything works out for them. I had to be more genuine, I wrote someone once to get something from her, not even noticing that I was just using her. I felt bad later because it was mean to do that even if I didn't mean it. I apologized but she never said anything but I hope she knows it was not my intent. I do though see how weak I am in my faith, I just don't discuss it much, but I admire the people who just let it out there. I always tell people who do, and I hope one day I am strong enough to in person, or just get the platform where I feel comfortable and have a voice.
I've been listening to a ton of podcast on theology and religion as I work and it has really opened up my mind. The one I was listening to the other day was talking about fundamentalism and talking about being in this culture but not of this culture, a spin on what Jesus said in John
"15 Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him. 16 For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world. 17 And the world passeth away, and the lust thereof: but he that doeth the will of God abideth for ever."
I am trying to find that balance in my life, where I enjoy this culture and take what it has to offer but I don't allow it to dictate my life or take me where I don't want to be. I have always been really good about not doing things just because others do it but still I find myself boxed in to things that I want to do and don't because of what others may think. It is never sin that I am talking about but things I believe I was put here to do but am not strong enough to do on my own and not strong enough in my faith to lean on God to push me through.
I don't know how all this came up just now but anyway I am writing this to say I am working on things with my friends that will come out soon. I hope you all will spread the word when we finally get out there. It will be definitely my sense of humor with sports and other things mixed in but it will not be personal at all. I don't know what I will do with this because in a few months I won't be as busy work wise but hopefully have a very strict schedule with things I want to get into. Anyway I will let you all know what is up, and I guess for now that is it. Check out the theology podcast on itunes or just type them in on yahoo search. I found one I really like called theology unplugged but it is pretty heady if you like that sort of thing. Alright until next time I guess.
I've been listening to a ton of podcast on theology and religion as I work and it has really opened up my mind. The one I was listening to the other day was talking about fundamentalism and talking about being in this culture but not of this culture, a spin on what Jesus said in John
"15 Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him. 16 For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world. 17 And the world passeth away, and the lust thereof: but he that doeth the will of God abideth for ever."
I am trying to find that balance in my life, where I enjoy this culture and take what it has to offer but I don't allow it to dictate my life or take me where I don't want to be. I have always been really good about not doing things just because others do it but still I find myself boxed in to things that I want to do and don't because of what others may think. It is never sin that I am talking about but things I believe I was put here to do but am not strong enough to do on my own and not strong enough in my faith to lean on God to push me through.
I don't know how all this came up just now but anyway I am writing this to say I am working on things with my friends that will come out soon. I hope you all will spread the word when we finally get out there. It will be definitely my sense of humor with sports and other things mixed in but it will not be personal at all. I don't know what I will do with this because in a few months I won't be as busy work wise but hopefully have a very strict schedule with things I want to get into. Anyway I will let you all know what is up, and I guess for now that is it. Check out the theology podcast on itunes or just type them in on yahoo search. I found one I really like called theology unplugged but it is pretty heady if you like that sort of thing. Alright until next time I guess.
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