Never Again

Remember this song? I used to listen to it as I would cry myself to sleep. Wait hold on that would have to mean I had to have been in a relationship which I actually would have cried over haha yeah ok. And not only that I would have had to have my heart broken. What I would do is I would lay in bed and picture myself crying about getting my heart broken then I would get all mad cause I looked like a pansy in my dream and I would go over to the mirror and I would be like look at yourself, almost like I am watching myself like scrooge and don't like what I see, am I am like who is the girl that I am crying over, and the ghost of girlfriend present shows me her picture and I am like what the F? I can't believe I am crying over her in my dream, and the hot girl ghost is like yeah that is what we all thought when we saw you crying, we were like man Chris really has to get himself together she is not even good looking, but she did laugh at most of your jokes and she also was the only girl to take a chance and you were like well beggers can't be choosers. Then the ghost was like look at the road that led you down. Now your just a whiny loser that got dumped be an ugly girl and your actually crying over her.

See why I don't date. I am just waiting on this ugly girl to come around and sweep me off my feet. Anyway the song:

Justin Timberlake off the Justified album- Never Again- it is a sweet song though, don't know about the video but whatever.

I love this shirt

Now that it is getting cooler, I thought, well we are now starting to wear long sleeve shirts. I thought let me put out a cool picture of someone wearing a long sleeve shirt so you get the idea that it is getting cooler.Yeah I actually thought that. I was like if I put a picture up of someone wearing a long sleeve shirt they will then think oh yeah it's getting cooler out thanks for telling me. Exactly. So I went through the internet to find the perfect picture of things I love all in one picture.

Things I love
1. Hearts
2. Stars
3. Long sleeve pushed up
4. Long sleeve shirt with no pants
5. Blue
6. Blonde hair
7. Ridiculous legs
8. Candice Swanepoel


That's weird that I was looking for the perfect pic and boom I found it. Here we go:

Please dress for the season just like Candice Swanepoel. I don't want any of you all to start getting sick.

Proposal site

I am once again looking on travel and leisure site. They have different ways to search for trips and different ranks or lists for things like best places to go for thrill rides or best hot dogs or best winter getaway that sort of thing. Which is always sweet to look at. I wrote that wrong, I should not have put a period there because it doesn't flow well, anyway. I was looking at most romantic places to propose in the world. One because I am a hopeless romantic and two because I already have the kay jewelry and now I just need the place in the girl. The girl really doesn't matter I just want everything to fit into a good story at the end of my life. The girl is just like the side part. Like I said about David Gray and the first dance at the wedding, yeah that is all for show, and so is the proposing. I would just do something sweet so she tells everyone, it is all about me is how I feel. So of course I am not going to just whip it out anywhere it has to be much bigger then that. I also hate when people do it in big groups or at sporting events, that is annoying. Enough with the attention getting, if you want to be like me and get attention like me then come up with something better, more romantic then you in your skins jersey around a bunch of people who could care less about you. Loser!

I am looking through the list and I will put the top three pics I saw of the 12. I saw Central Park on the list but that is too cliche. Also I don't want to have something again with a lot of people around. I don't want to get turned down in front of a lot of people and knowing me it could go either way- oh whooops too early I thought maybe it was worth a shot but look this was the only time I had available this year to take a week long trip so I thought hey lets go for it, I know we have only been dating for 5 months but hey when you know you know. Plus you had been flirty with some other guys lately so I thought maybe this would distract you long enough to really let me work my magic. Like this ( proceed to do push ups with no underwear on but left my shirt and socks on- my famous look.) So that is a no then. Alright well sir you can come take her back to the plane I need to be alone now, I have some thinking to do. My eyes are up here sir and also don't laugh I just got out of the water.

The Deserted Sand Spit- Fiji

The Pont Neuf- Paris

The Waipi'o Valley- Hawaii

I would have to choose the Deserted Sand Spit- Fiji. Not only because the name is sweet, but also because I like the little hut and it seems secluded enough so when I am crying after the turn down I will be able to let it all out. On the bridge will be embarrassing with all that culture walking around and asking me if I am alright in French, I do want to go to the Louvre though. The Hawaii thing is sweet so maybe I will take myself on a singles vacation after the failed proposal which will add to my story. "Then Chris picked himself up and began his journey toward finding the new Mrs. Scarce. He was an idiot who didn't see all the signs she left him like- Back the F up Chris, or I don't want this at all, or don't call me, or we can't meet now or anytime in the next year. Then Chris said well what about unless here in Fiji. She reluctantly said yes. The poor guy just kept barreling through all for the sake of getting to the proposal. Maybe next time."

Maybe next time I will start with a Love's Embrace in the cabin and if she accepts that during a huge storm then I will know she is mine. Then in a month I will head to Fiji to complete the steps. Then onto David Gray dancing, then to the court house for the divorce, then back to single life and finishing my scrapbook of pictures from all these great times. Oh I will have to knock her up at some point because I want to pass along the scrapbook to my kids when I am gone so my story lives on years after I am dead and buried.

"Bye Dad I love you, I know you do, just make sure you show the world this scrapbook, well there are no pictures of your face in it, yeah I know just tell them my story and let their imagination fill in the rest. Just like I love. Gooooooood Byyyyyyeeeee."

Affair is coming am I right?

So I am listening to this podcast from Dr. Chapman again and it is talking about infidelity. This guest author he had on his show- Dave Carter who wrote this book torn asunder, on how people first get in affairs and what you should do to avoid them. He goes into greater detail about how to save the marriage and all that sort of stuff but the thing that took me back was first that 40% of Christian marriages by the time one of the partners reaches forty will experience infidelity. The second is when Gary Chapman asked Dave how to deal with infidelity and feelings for it, he said that what he suggest to all of his couples that he works with is that anytime you get a feeling of attraction towards someone else you discuss it with your spouse. He said he felt jealous the first time his wife told him, but that it actually helped his marriage to discuss it. He says that feelings for others is a natural thing, connecting with others because we spend so much time with the other sex in our lives that we are bound to have feelings so don't deny it just be open about it.

I actually like this idea but I think it is out there because you have to be so honest and so respectful of the information. Your spouse is coming to you with something she knows you may get bitter about, yet she is trying to be up front so that nothing comes of it so you have to respect that, but man I would really have to bite my tongue but it may be what people are missing. Someone that is naturally jealous may not be able to handle this and then what. I don't know if I would even want to know but also I would want to do what is best for the marriage. Someone try it and let me know how that works out for you. Then when I finally get married at 50 I will have to then like another women and let my wife know. See what she has to say about it.

Hey I am being honest you have to respect that about me right. I mean look at her, she is hotter then you, how was I know supposed to fall for that. Look at her butt. Did I just go to far on the information?

He talked about how most people don't think they are going to have an affair but that you are naive if you think it could never happen to you. He went on to say that none of the people he has worked with actually thought that they would do this, but it just happens. Great!!!

I'm above it.

Update you all

I am all for saving the ta ta's but man do I hate that saying.

Alice Springs Chicken tonight-which means outback.

Wait am I turning into one of those people that update everything I am thinking.

Yeap!!!

Right now I am thinking how much I look like a mix of a lumberjack and Jesus. People tell me the Jesus part but I can't hold up to that look, so I am trying to push lumberjack. Hopefully they don't mind if I carry an axe into outback.

Tall me

Dang you Dr. Gary Chapman, you are completely right. I keep reading your books, listening to your podcast, and keep finding out more about myself. I need words of affirmation like she only knows. Someone tell me I am amazing please. When I pass you by just whisper sweet nothings. Actually don't, I hate the whisper and what does sweet nothings even mean. Just say Chris I really like how your strutting your stuff right now, I really wish I picked you instead of this guy. And I will be like, well we all make mistakes, your mistake is just a lot more costly because, well you choose a nice guy and really nothing else. I would love to sit in on one of your conversations, and fall asleep half way through it. No it's not you guys, I am just really tired. Well guess what, there are a lot of nice guys out there, but there is only one me.. But it's cool he is tall and nice so I get it. Oh and he makes you laugh huh? Wait is this a taller version of me were talking about. Man maybe you did make the right choice, Dr. Chapman now wtf am I supposed to do? How can I compete with tall me- he completes her, I only 3/4 complete her because I am smaller.

I need to go here, this place is beautiful:

Anantara Dhigu Resort & Spa- Maldives

                                                                         One day right?

Don't you let me go, let me go tonight!

Come on now R.

R. Kelly is sick. If he could just stay focused, I think he could really put out a classic. Not to say in my opinion he hasn't because I think tp-2 is one of the best albums ever but that is just me. I would love to see him mix a few club songs, a few slow romantic songs like 12 play, a few old school r and b songs like he covered Sam Cooke's bring it on home to me, maybe one or two religious songs. See he has it in him to make a top 500 album he just doesn't seem to stay focused enough for a full album. So I guess we have to take what he gives us and always hope for more from him. It is the people that push him to make so much club stuff that he gets away from what he is really good at, what really separates him. Here is two completely different songs. One inspirational song, the other about a women's love. As only R Kelly could do.